TALK ABOUT FUCKIN DRAMAS

Today...was a good exercise for me to block out negative emotions and just ignoring others, be it positive or negative for me. Regardless if the events was to help me for the future or to hurt me for the future, I was able to reflect and decide how I want to take these events. I can just shut my mouth, think "I'm not responsible for your emotions, you being pissed at me, you being happy at me." Don't add excess meaning to something.

What's fucked up is this is all work related. I decided in my life is that work does not take priority in my life. I don't give a fuck if it's for my family, for the patients at work, friends whatever. If it's not in MY PRIORITY, I don't give a fuck. And for anyone reading my blog, if you are not in my priority, FUCK YOU.

Now I don't go out of my way to hurt people but if the karma, vibe, mojo, whatever the fuck, doesn't go with my lifestyle and behavior, fuck you. I like you, but fuck you.

When it comes to learning, I'm all for it. My philosophies in life is that, if you aren't improving anything in life and if you think you are ok and settle for the standard, your life is dead. Don't care, if your alarm clock haven't changed in the last 2 years, your life is dead. Don't care if you got a two story house and all the toys and money, you still dead. Especially if you are lower than broke, you in debt. You are DEAD. But that rant is for another posting.

This is a rant sorry. hahahahaahahahahaha

Well, work was nuts. Lot's of drama. Like I said, I don't go around hurting others, but if you don't vibe with me, I cut you out. Being mad is a waste of emotion. I'd rather think about the future, and if you are trying to get a razz out of me or a comment, fuck it. Lets ignore whatever happen and lets think about tomorrow. That's it. It's not what you say but what you do. And I noticed if I just shut my mouth and not acknowledge you, I can pull you into my reality. The ones who don't get pulled in, fuck em. I ignore your ass.

Again, sorry for the rant.

Work, fuck. SOOO incongruent. I want to not think about work but I end up thinking about work. Weird world. But briefly. Some shit happen at work. We all not working at our potential. I know it. Regardless how well we are able to do the minimum. We are not improving. And like I said, if we don't strive to improve at anything. We are dead. So at work. Our behavior isn't up to par with how it should be and our communication isn't that great. We had shit on our chest and things were said.

Anyway, I come across like I know my shit. No, I can be wrong, and I will be wrong, but the thing is I take responsibility on what I do and say, wrong or right. But at the end of the day or during when I'm venting to myself, I will do what I can to improve. Everything at work, things when people say I'm doing junk at or get scoldings and I talk back, I improve.

I'm rambling aimlessly hahaha, love it. It's all about self talk and improvement.

In summary for work, people talking back at other people, people not helping each other improve, being talked bad about and those people not helping us improve. But for me, fuck it, tomorrow is another day and improve. Definition for crazy is doing the same thing over and over and hoping things will change.

At the end of the day, we all drank some alcohhol, talk story and shoot the shit, share some laughs and vibe well. Minus the alchohol, that's how life should be. We are all buddys and have well intentions with each other.

Enough of work.

For today, I woke up kinda late, 10am. Didn't do shit. I wanted to work out. Do some legs. I will make it a goal to wake up early and exercise.

I need to read also.

Tomorrow I'm off so I'll get a haircut from a real stylist. Be pimpin. Exercise. That's it.
I really want to vent on this fuckin blog.

I'm swearing a lot in this shit but it's ok. Swearing isn't negative. It's all in the beholder.

Other than work. Nothing really happen. Birds are still shitting on my car. I don't know. Need to sarge tomorrow. I'll probably go to malls and shit and talk to random chicks. It's all about picking up or socializing with random chicks.

I need to go to the bookstore and learn more about investing. I really need to think of other income without taking up another job. Remember cash flow chart. Business makes passive. Self employed and employed is active. Fuck active.

Anyway, enough bullshit that doesn't matter cause tomorrow is another day, and I'll just stop typing before I start crying or some weird shit.

Later for those reading this blog.