Fuck! Need to fix my frame!

Ok, I'm getting real weird about some shit. I feel she isn't into me. I mean we talked about being more than friends but shit, I get the feel that I'm just a friend which we can have intimate moments but that's it. I CAN'T be so emotionally hooked on her cause I feel I won't get her loyalty in me. It's something I can't word out. I just need to vent my thoughts right here. Like we can have passion and shit and the next, I'll think about her all day and it's like, we aren't dating or some shit. I'm sure she will see other people and I will regardless of what we've done.

Anyway, the thing is to sarge more people and don't be so hooked on her. She's NOT my girl. Just a friend. If my guy friends start hanging out with people besides me, I won't get all jealous and shit and if I'm just going to be her friend, I will treat her the same. Unless she is into me...
SHE WILL BE MY GENUINE FRIEND!!! I will not go sexual on her. I will see if she does.
Ok, that's nice getting that off my chest.

Next is sarging. I need to sarge man. Need to go out. Don't go out when I feel like shit. Have fun. Sarge. Nothing more. Sarge, get it done.

The main thing is what is my goal in life. My goal that would make everything great is more time, more money. Plain and simple.

I want to entertain. Be popular. To teach. The be VIP. All this would happen if I get my time and money set. If I get my money situation downk, I'll get more time. Another income.

Get it done Reian.