Still kickin'

Wednesday,
I called up Vince to go out that night. Picked him up and went to a bar. Tried to see if a certain bartender was working. She wasn't and it was dead so we decided not to go. We plan to go to DandB.

We get there and there's hunnies everywhere. We go in and shoot the shit and chill. I meet Kev in there. We are able to go upstairs but it was fucken pack. I saw Mike and Harold. We leave.

We head to Exotics. We sit and chill. A buy me drinky girl comes by when I open my wallet. I didn't want to by her a drink. I get my 50 ones. I see the dancer I met before and I just wanted to get the number and leave. Just to get to see if I can. I sit and she dances for a few people. We say hi and talk story. I was just vibing off. Hopefully my stalling made my body language and voice tone all off. I felt off a little but I was affirming on the spot that I'm sociable and relaxed. We talk a few. She tells me about some guys that's creeping her out.
I'm sure she's just talking shit to lower their value and when I leave she would just say the same shit about me to them. Don't know. But for my ego I'll just think that I have higher value than those fools. Anyway, when me and Vin leave I go behind the person she's dancing and I just smile that I'm leaving. She ask if I'm leaving. I saw yeah and I was like fuck it. I took my phone out and ask her to put her number in. She looks at my phone weird but she dials a number and calls. She listens I guess for the voice mail and gives it to me. The person she's dancing for looks at me. I don't even look at him. I get her number and I leave.

Me and Vin reflect on the night and I drop him home.

Was a pretty fun night. Actually, boring but was active in a way. I am very chill. Not high energy. Oh well. I'll figure out to vibe my low energy that is attractive and charismatic.

Now that I got the number, I won't call. I'm sure she has my number in her phone. If not, whatever, I won't call. I just wanted to see if I can get the number. If I go back. I'll just say hi and leave and do other shit. I guess a freeze out to display non neediness.

Anyway, I need to figure out other places to head to. I was able to accomplish a goal of getting the number. I need to reward myself so I can go sarging more and have more courage to open.

Today I just worked. I hate work. It's a burden. I'm in a rut. Rat race. All that bullshit. Brings me pain to work. I just don't give a fuck.

It's about being happy and doing things that brings you happiness. If it doesn't bring you happiness, you are not happy. Inner locus.

Nothing now to report except KNOW YOUR PRIORITIES

You are you're own boss of your life. No one else. If someone else writes your job description of your life, you don't have a life.

I will do things that bring me happiness in life. The rest is just filler material.

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Friday, today
I met up with Vince. We head to DandB and chilled there. We just drink a few beers. Lots of cute girls up there.

We head to Exotics and it was around 2 and we wanted to leave. Kinda boring. Same girls. That one dancer I talked to a bunch is there. Don't know if I'm a customer or like a new friend but I'll don't give a fuck. Giving her to much of my time. Other girls out there to talk to so I didn't go over and get a dance from her or talk to her. She has her own customers. One of the buy me drink girls see me busting out my cash and she ask to sit down and get a drink. She ask if I'm filipino. Fuck that. I change thread and ask if she remembered me. She said no and I said seriously "Oh, you hurt my feelings" and she looked really surprised and pissed and walks away.

This drunk dude walks and pukes on the floor. Gross shit. He goes to the bathroom and starts talking trash to some dude. The friends are there to calm it down and they shake hands. Me and Vince are ready to bounce. He never got to see the face of the dancer I talked to so I'm like lets go look at her. I walk over, toss 3 bucks and just walk away. She looks up and smiles and says hi. I just smirk and walk away. We head out.

We walk and I'm like dude, I'm going to the parlour. We go up and we see 3 dudes telling me to go it. I see Bebe. Fucked up I know her name. Whatever. She knows me. The other chick, don't know her name. She knows me as well. I guess they are running it for the day. I hang by the door. She walks over and says hi and takes my Black Flys glasses. She just takes my hand and leads me. I didn't really want to go in.

I go in. She gives me a discount. She brings the girls over and I say I can't pick one and she has to pick one for me. This thin girl says hi and we introduce. We are nude and she kisses my body. She sees my ring and ask to wear it. I say I can't take it off and she takes lotion and removes my ring. I freaked. I thought she wouldn't give it back. She takes it and wears it. She gives it back. I get a BJ and she goes cowgirl. I'm like ready to blow after 2 strokes and I tell her to change positions. She says if I'm going to cum. I say no. I'm on top and I pound the hell out of her. Just hard fucking. I slip out and she's like come on baby I want to cum. So I go super fast and hard and after a few minutes I ask if she cummed. She said yeah and I say do you want to cum again. She says with me. So I go super ass hard. I start going limp and shes like you can't be patient. Look what happen. I ask for a hand job. She gives me one and I blow. The whole time she kept calling me cute.

I head out the door and I talk story with the two girls. They talk in their language and I say what you said. They say that I always come here. I get hugs and kisses from the girls and I head out.

The day was just done.

Thats all to report fuckers