Taking back control of my mind

Well, haven't posted consistantly but I'm back.

I got written up for work. Fuck it. That shit is under me. I was told people thought I was selfish. Probably so but it was for my best intention and I love the people that support me and the rest well...you can kiss my ass and you are no longer something that's worth acknowledging too. Do not exist in my life. No eye contact and look right through you as if you are not there. Harsh words but being to bothered thinking what other assholes think about you is just a waste of my time.

Anyway, Cyn tells me it's Julies Bday at Mai Tais. Fuck yeah, I'm down.

So after work, I go to Mai Tais. Say hi to all my cousins and shit. Good times with family. I'm in my fucking scrubs. Too funny. I order a pitcher of Bud Light and I fucken drink that shit by myself. Crazy shit.

I just wanted to drink my worries away.

When we all decided to leave, my cousin mentions that Sky Lopez is there. She's a cute PORN STAR. So me and Norman go I check her out. She ends up going to the bathroom and Roy tells her to take a picture with me. She comes up to me and says where's my camera. I don't have one but I told her to write shit on my scrubs. She does so and I just ask questions as if she was a long lost friend and we are catching up. I tell her hows Krystal Steal doing. She giggles and says she's partying it up. I give a hi five and we leave.

We end up going to some asian bar. We go outside and we notice a massage parlour. We go up and look at the girls. We all talk story and we head back down to the bar.

We go in and me and Norman open a group of girls. OH MY FUCKEN GOD!!!
These chicks are fucken solid. I just got mad horny after that.

We sing some songs and I pop in two Viagras. That shit messed me up. later on I ended up getting short of breathe and stomach cramps. It kicks it.

These fucken chicks are just walking around and I'm just a fucken horn dog.

We end up cruzing to a massage parlour China Spa. I fucken go it and we talk story to mama san. She takes my hand and I go in. My cousins are just waiting in the lobby.

I pay mama 40 and the girl comes in later. She ask for blowjob or everything. I say everything. She said take off my clothes and to go shower. I told her I no like shower. So she said she's coming back. She gets in her nighty. I pay her like 80 bucks. She wanted 150 but I showed her only 80 bucks. She saids this time she gives me discount.

I take off my clothes and she tells me to lay down. She goes and wipes my body with a wash cloth. She goes and rubs my dick and lick my nipples. I get a fucken hard on. She puts on a condom on me and gives a BJ for like 10 seconds. She gets naked and jumps on my dick. After a few stokes she tells me new position. Missonary. I fuck the hell out of her. No short strokes. Just pure hard fast fucking. Like 4 strokes per second. Anyway...

She says I have to jack off and she jacks me off until I cum. Good shit.

I'm hella out of breathe. I'm exhausted.

We head to other parlours and just talk to the girls and mama san. Then I go home.

I woke up with a mean headache today.

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I need to reevaluate my mind and focus. No negative shit. Ignore people and events that go against your goals. Go towards being happy and achieving your goals.

DOne