Crazy.

I haven't posted here for a while. I should post here before I post on the HawaiiPUA forum. Anyway, lifes been good. I love Elyse. I love her.

I'm still doing the pick up shit. But now, it's all about skill set. Not for a girl. Elyse is all I need. This pick up stuff is to help others. To become social. To be popular. So I and my associates become VIP. To be bad ass.

Pick ups been slowing turning up. I can do japanese sets. It's fun. I still need to do clubs and other shit. See how I can generate attraction.

I won't do more though. I have loyality and faith with the relationship I have with Elyse. God I love her. I'm pretty sure as of now, no one is reading this. It's like I'm typing to myself in third person. I will be there for her. I'll do my best so that she get's want she desires. I know there are some shit that will make me uncomfortable, like her asking me to the prom. I WILL GO for her senior prom but it's just different, hahaha, was going to say weird. It's not her but the situation that I'm 22, going to a 16-17 year old prom. I know it's a limiting belief and I'm not saying she's a kid. Though when you word it that way, it might seem that's what I'm tripping about, but that I'll feel old, I know noone knows if I go. But it's an intimate moment and I'd only go if it's for fun. Like Shervon said she would go to have fun. I'd go with someone like that but I don't know.

Should I just suck it up and do stuff that I don't want to do?

If I truly LOVE her, would I do things that make me uncomfortable to make her happy?

Am I willing to change my behavior and mindsets for someone else's validation?

Tough questions. I know, I know, if I have deep feelings for Elyse, you should do what it takes. Or should it be where we accept each other as we are, yes there are things that we are compatible or congruent with in our life but that does not make the person less of a person and less attractive, that person is a different person.

Wow, deep shit there, I just need to talk about it and write it off to get it correctly.

Anyway, I got a girlfriend, awesome, I'm sarging and developing my skillset. I need to get a better car, side income, better clothes, MY OWN PLACE! This year, I'll get it done. Oh yeah, to start lifting weights.

Good shit.

Anyway, more later.