WTF is up, you're so EMO!

Damn, some shit is going on with Elyse and I. We are so not communicating, or I am anyway. There are some shit I can't put into a complete spoken thought. Weird. I think it's just her going out. I can tell she's just someone who will go to clubs and dance. Whatever, I've been there, with club girls, I PU them. Anyway, I guess she might be a club girl, don't know. Well, I only see her on certain days. If we are able to see each other, we should. I cancell plans or invite her to places. On days we can't see each other, if we both have plans, then all good, we can do our shit.

What, say we always have plans with some other thing, we won't see each other, only for a little bit, why should we see each other just a little? As if that's going to make my day alright.

I don't know, I'm not going to be a fucken controller though. I'll let her do her shit. I'll do mine. Like my days off. I don't have to see her. I can make my plans, and not see her. See if she'll be ok with that feeling. I'll do that not to be a dick, but to see how we would handle this.

Yeah, she can go out Friday and do her shit. I won't see her Saturday all day so I can do my shit. Maybe we can see each other Sunday. Don't know, it's laundry day. I'll do shit to my car. I'll go to the beach or something.

Anyway, worry is a dumb feeling. Just do my shit. Regardless. Be busy, do my shit.

Do my fucking goals. Do shit that makes me happy, that makes me want to live life!

Let's do this shit hard.

Shit

Ok, so we had some fucked up discussion about her fucking piercing in her chest. WTF! She knows I don't like it. I tell her she can do whatever she wants, I'll support her. I'll be in some negative state, cause well, it'll influence my state but I know I get final say if I do or not. But anyway, I don't like it, I haven't seen it. I'm not saying I don't approve it. I just don't like it. That's it. She can get it or not. But shit, I'm not going to draw attention to it.

How about I take my lip ring out? I don't need it. Fuck it. I don't know what to do or think.

She's so beautiful and can be so classy. Fuck it. It's alright. Fuck it fuck it fuck it. That's all I can say. My reality will not be effected.

That's it, shit, I don't know why my reframe and mind processing swayed away. I guess I'm happy this happened.

Image. It's all about image. It's whether you accept another person's image or not. Whether or not you get affected by other shit.

Oh well. I'm really thinking about taking my piercing out. Shit.

So stupid. I don't give a fuck. I don't have to acknowledge anything I don't want. I believe what I want. I do what I want. I won't be shaken by other realities. I don't even have to acknowledge other realities. I can just cut thread and idea.