Crazy.

I haven't posted here for a while. I should post here before I post on the HawaiiPUA forum. Anyway, lifes been good. I love Elyse. I love her.

I'm still doing the pick up shit. But now, it's all about skill set. Not for a girl. Elyse is all I need. This pick up stuff is to help others. To become social. To be popular. So I and my associates become VIP. To be bad ass.

Pick ups been slowing turning up. I can do japanese sets. It's fun. I still need to do clubs and other shit. See how I can generate attraction.

I won't do more though. I have loyality and faith with the relationship I have with Elyse. God I love her. I'm pretty sure as of now, no one is reading this. It's like I'm typing to myself in third person. I will be there for her. I'll do my best so that she get's want she desires. I know there are some shit that will make me uncomfortable, like her asking me to the prom. I WILL GO for her senior prom but it's just different, hahaha, was going to say weird. It's not her but the situation that I'm 22, going to a 16-17 year old prom. I know it's a limiting belief and I'm not saying she's a kid. Though when you word it that way, it might seem that's what I'm tripping about, but that I'll feel old, I know noone knows if I go. But it's an intimate moment and I'd only go if it's for fun. Like Shervon said she would go to have fun. I'd go with someone like that but I don't know.

Should I just suck it up and do stuff that I don't want to do?

If I truly LOVE her, would I do things that make me uncomfortable to make her happy?

Am I willing to change my behavior and mindsets for someone else's validation?

Tough questions. I know, I know, if I have deep feelings for Elyse, you should do what it takes. Or should it be where we accept each other as we are, yes there are things that we are compatible or congruent with in our life but that does not make the person less of a person and less attractive, that person is a different person.

Wow, deep shit there, I just need to talk about it and write it off to get it correctly.

Anyway, I got a girlfriend, awesome, I'm sarging and developing my skillset. I need to get a better car, side income, better clothes, MY OWN PLACE! This year, I'll get it done. Oh yeah, to start lifting weights.

Good shit.

Anyway, more later.

Holy shit!

Alright, I haven't blogged here for awhile. My bad. Dude, I'm so in love with Elyse it's insane. Shit, if you read all the past post, I hated her. I didn't want to hang with her. It's so weird how things changed. It must of all started on the week of the New Year. Shit man, I don't want to describe but lets say we took our friendship to a sexual and meaningful relationship. Yeah, sex is awesome but just being with her and calling her mine is a wonderful feeling.

Ok, also, I've been getting back into the game. I meet a dude name Patrick and Jim. Cool guys. They need to just hang with me and we will run sets like a mofo. All good. I opened a few sets and it all went social. I won't complain. Even though it didn't go sexual, I'm still being a social butterfly.

Anyway, I also started lifting weights. I need to be consistant. I will. Let's do this.

I haven't been focusing on my car cause it's fucking pissing me off. It's being a bad luck.

I want to get into my relationship with Elyse. God, I like her so much. I can't stop thinking about her. Fuck.

Anyway, catch you later fuckers.

Fuck! Need to fix my frame!

Ok, I'm getting real weird about some shit. I feel she isn't into me. I mean we talked about being more than friends but shit, I get the feel that I'm just a friend which we can have intimate moments but that's it. I CAN'T be so emotionally hooked on her cause I feel I won't get her loyalty in me. It's something I can't word out. I just need to vent my thoughts right here. Like we can have passion and shit and the next, I'll think about her all day and it's like, we aren't dating or some shit. I'm sure she will see other people and I will regardless of what we've done.

Anyway, the thing is to sarge more people and don't be so hooked on her. She's NOT my girl. Just a friend. If my guy friends start hanging out with people besides me, I won't get all jealous and shit and if I'm just going to be her friend, I will treat her the same. Unless she is into me...
SHE WILL BE MY GENUINE FRIEND!!! I will not go sexual on her. I will see if she does.
Ok, that's nice getting that off my chest.

Next is sarging. I need to sarge man. Need to go out. Don't go out when I feel like shit. Have fun. Sarge. Nothing more. Sarge, get it done.

The main thing is what is my goal in life. My goal that would make everything great is more time, more money. Plain and simple.

I want to entertain. Be popular. To teach. The be VIP. All this would happen if I get my time and money set. If I get my money situation downk, I'll get more time. Another income.

Get it done Reian.

NEW YEAR!!!

Alright. It's a new year. Good shit is going to happen. I WILL get my shit done.

Goals
PU- Pick up will be on the top of my todo list. I want to get good enough to teach it. I will be doing Mystery's Newbie Mission for a few months. I'll see how it goes. I need to approach, approach and approach. Calibration. Congtingecy Plans.

Weight Lifting- Will see how I can weight lift with my schedule. My health should and is more important than sarging so I'll make a set day on when to lift and then pick my sarging days. Just eat healthier and more. Subway tuna. All the time.

Business- Will be an owner of a type of club. Will be a PU instructor

Music- Will make a band

Car- Will get a pimp car for my Christmas present.

Anyway, besides my goals, life's been different. Been spending a lot of time with Elyse. AWESOME girl. Been spending some time sarging. Been getting some sets in. My car's been fucking with me. All good. Got some weight lifting shit. Will get more. Been good.